A lot of people have been asking me what I've been up to since my exams are over.

So these are the people I've been hanging out with since then. :)

Lots of good things have been happening. I'm doing 2 upcoming films and photoshoots. :)

I'm in SRT The Young Co. and ColorFunk, so I'm back in touch with theater again! :)

I'm VERY happy.

Today while I was talking with a friend, we have sort of come to the mutual consensus that modern technology has led to people being so much narcissistic than before. Many blogs are filled with not just daily doings of a specific individual, but also contains the deep dark thoughts of them. This large display of human emotion on a public site comes across not as vulnerability, but instead as a show of some sort. A garner of attention to a certain extent. We then somehow linked this back to the reason for this phenomenon being Man's innate desire for power and control. The control of another being's attention that is.

He then asked me if I liked being in control, applying the question hypothetically in a very normal context. I thought for a bit, and then came to the answer that 'I'm bossy towards my sister.'

'That's sibling rivalry,' he said. 'It doesn't count.'

So my answer was this.

My desire to please people > My desire to control

That's food for thought for me.

I hate this. I want us to stop fighting please.

Sometimes, when you feel so happy that you are raised so high that you can almost touch the clouds. These two weeks of holidays have been absolutely amazing for me. I've been basically living out my dream. Like I was in some other world where I could be with my one and only first love. It sounds really dramatic but I feel so close to where I want to be that it's as if I can almost see the outline of it's silhouette.

It's corny.

It's cheesy.

But it's real.

And I honestly feel like I'm on top of the world.

To all my friends out there in the midst of their As and PW, keep going! You guys can beat it. :)

I'm still rooting and praying for you.

This week, I met a fellow TSDian graduate. We talked about many things, having one underlying commonality that connected us together. The fact that we have been through the same torture of putting a grade on the love for theater.

My experience with theater almost falls short of being horrifying. Despite it being the only thing that I love as much as the people around me, withdrawal symptoms come far and fast. The only thing is, I don't have a nicotine patch.

Not yet at least.

A recent article I read talks about how digital technology makes breaking up so much easier to do nowadays. Photos in digital format just require a click of a button to send them to digital hell. People can be deleted with a click of 'Remove from friends'. Erasing every semblance of who they once to you has become so much easier. But this process doesn't necessarily make the occurrence any more easy to go through or any less painful. I believed that a cathartic feeling would arise after seeing those faces being deleted away into my trash folder. This feeling, however, eluded me. After what seems like almost a year, the emotions are pretty much the same, but only to a lesser intensity than before. Maybe it's because I'm so close to being back to theater and performing that an unprecedented set of emotions swell inside. Eradication from my memory was not as infallible as I thought.

Regardless of which, a good friend once told me, God doesn't want us to live with regrets or in the past. We've got to learn from it and move on. Taking it as a lesson learnt, I would probably say that this is my first and probably hardest break up I'll ever experience. Unconventional, but still attainable.